I'm sorry for not loving you the way you should've been loved. I'm sorry I put someone else's comfort above yours. I tormented you with thoughts of other women and their beauty instead of appreciating yours. I kept you up at night wondering if you were enough. I beat you down instead of lifting you up. I cut away at your self esteem like a jealous boyfriend to insecure to admit his own fualts. I criticized your scars and stretch marks instead of celebrating the lives you so selflessly created. I took your comfort by exposing parts that you didn't want shown. I let the societal pressure of being independent take away from your happiness. I should've been your first friend, your protector and your biggest fan. I know I failed you in the most basic ways possible. For that I'm sorry.
Dear Me,
I know the relationship we built is nothing but ash and rubble. I know you have no reason to trust me, But I am trying.. I am working on being the person you need me to be. Just don't give up on me yet.
Sincerely,
Me
