Stitch by stitch

I wonder if you see me

If you see me and how hard I am trying

The urge to give up and the possibility of failure Is a never-ending pull from the bottom of the abyss 

But I’ll keep myself together for you

Each crack and broken piece carefully knotted and glued to make a whole

The pieces of my soul slowly leaking out of every crevice

Hoping and wishing for the day I give in

For the time when my demons finally say they win

But each time I get closer to calling it done

I sit and remember how far I have come.

And each time I fall I pull myself up,
I grab the needle and choose a thread

watch me sew my broken pieces back together again

I scoop up the remainder of my soul from the ground

And shove it back in and stuff it all down

I fill it back up and try not to drown

Then I sit and I wait with my needle and thread

For the next tiny rip in my soul to begin.

A Sirens Lullaby

why fall with the stars

when you can float with the sea

caress your soul with sea foam and breeze

you can hide from your sins beneath the ocean waves

or, lay at the bottom and dream of better days

stroll through the waters loving embrace

rest on the coral find peace in this place

watch the day fade to twilight

from beneath the oceans depth

give yourself to the water

it always knows best..

hide from your demons below the high tide

laugh with the waves

and fly with riptides

and when the funs over

and you are needing the rest

let the sea be your burial 

Close your eyes and just rest.

Why fall with the stars when you can float with the sea??

the stars are far nicer than the sea will ever be..

the stars are for dreamers the sea is for pain

the stars light your fire but the sea kills the flame.

Where is home to you...

I can picture a future with anyone that runs their fingers through my hair.

call me pretty and I'm as good as yours.

with your scent on my skin you perfume me with your lust.

paint me with our futures lost

dress me in your adoration and finish with a bow

I'm your pretty little package, all set,ready to go

tie me to your side forever with your good morning text

I'm a greedy for any attention I will get.

you have always been my home, my addiction

running through my veins

you dive away the demons

and numb all of the pain

your the pleasure principle incarnate

The definition of sin

 you build me up to break me down

over and over again

rip and tear till I am nothing but parts

puzzle pieces that will never fit

drag me back into your keeping

with the promise of your kiss.